Monday, October 24, 2011

Bad News

We got some tentative bad news last week about Nugget and Lady's case. And it was confirmed this morning. Great way to start off the week. Needless to say we do not know if we will be able to adopt them, and will have to wait another 6-9 months, on average(could be in the range of 3-12 months), until we hear. This is obviously a huge devastation to us.

But as David reminded me, this is a reminder for us that they are not ours, they are His first, and we must trust. So for the next 6-9 months we wait. They will stay with us during this process, thank God. But nothing will be decided permanently for quite some time.

I just selfishly wanted this in-between time to be over. I wanted our family to be done. I was looking forward to celebrating the completion of our family in March with the birth of our baby, and the adoption of these two before then. But in reality, when has anything happened the way I thought it should in my life? Usually it's better, so I'll trust that God has a better idea than me. And in the mean time, I will be consistently fighting to not be living in fear and anger over the next several months.

6 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear this. Hang in there.

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  2. Love you guys. Praying for you.

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  3. sucks. I am sorry. I will keep praying for everyone involved.

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  4. Hey Amanda -- sorry to hear this. After Madelyn was home 2 months word came that the parents decided they wanted to relinquish rights and have her raised with her sister. All stress subsided. Then 2- months later they decide to contest placement, fear and security gone. Just to say -that I can relate - not totally but I know it is hard. I will pray for you to not live in fear and have unnatural peace over the next months. I will pray you are more successful than I was!!! Press on.

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  5. MandaBear - once again, God has you (and them)right where he wants you, i am just sorry it is such a precarious place! But remember, you & David have had the courage before and again, now, to put yourself out there, and i know you will stay strong (most of the time :0) i will continue to pray for your patience, peace and joy - Mom

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  6. It is so hard to accept G-d's plan and His timeline, which is so very different from ours. We are struggling with this w/our two foster sons (brothers, but one's dad is in the picture and one's isn't) and being worried that their birth parents will appeal and appeal and appeal, allowing them to be in foster care indefinitely instead of us adopting them this spring like we'd anticipated. "Grant me the power to accept the things I cannot change."

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