Give me Grace

Putting the babies to bed tonight was a little surreal. It's as if I know something I shouldn't, like I got a peak into the future. And I KNOW that tomorrow their lives will change forever.

I feel an overwhelming peace at the direction the trial will take. What I am overwhelmed with is this: they have an amazing mom. And we shouldn't have to adopt these babies, they are loved, and cared for, and right, when they are with her. And yet tomorrow she might loose all of that, and they might loose all of that, because of a choice she has made. And I can't sleep tonight, for her. I can't imagine how she could. I can't imagine how she will handle it.

I am overwhelmed with emotion, and I can't imagine how the trial will unfold, I can't imagine myself in their position. I don't think I could hold it together, I would be broken, a puddle on the floor.

As I was today... They bring the new caseworkers out to my house to "experience" the life of a foster parent. And they have to ask me questions. Today they came out and one of their questions was, "so how are you feeling about the trial tomorrow?"
And I lost it.
It's overwhelming.

Tonight as I tucked Lady in I read her her Give Me Grace book. And tomorrow's prayer was this,

"Today in the early morn make me thankful I was born. Give my spirit peace within. Let each day with hope begin."

We'll go with that.
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